Its midnight . And I have no idea what to do in a time like this - which when everybody in this house is sleeping . I felt empty . Like seriously E M P T Y . I should sleep . I should havin' a long sleep full of beautiful dreams . But well , the hard thing is ... I can't . I just can't . Whenever I closed my eyes . I felt like ... I don't know what that "feeling" called . But I hate that .

The feeling you get when you getting so low . The feeling you get when you extremely sad . The feeling you get when everybody leaving and you are there all alone . That yeah.. EMPTY feels.

So I decided to tumblrin' . And I saw that above picture . And I said "yeah, sure " . Whut-ever . No I lied . I just stared that thing .

A friend of my mum . She is someone I barely know much . But she is so .. I know this is a strong word but ... she is so "annoying" . I mean , well , she have a daughter like me . A fifteen years old . So , yeah , we are on the same age .

And the women when visiting us - I mean the family - was like " Umph , Nurul , What you got in last exam " "What Achievement did you get ?" . And I answered her questions and she was like "Oh " . And gave me that Oh-look and trust me , its not the usual Oh-look though . She had the Oh-look face that actually said "OH JUST THAT?" "OH , HOW PITY" .

Then she would tell about her perfect daughter/son . "Ya know what ? **** received a big achievement from the school" "She got straight A's in his/her last exam" "She is blablabla "

Later, She would give me the great laughter . The HA-HA-HA laughs that evil characters in Disney would do .

I mean like ... She is ANNOYING right ? . Boasting about her daughter . whuteverrr . I don't care a thing about your daughter, Mrs . I don't care if she is beautiful or genius or even if she is a queen of Elizabeth . You don't need to make a comparison between me or your flawless daughter . If she do flawless and perfect , let her be . You don't need to remind me that I'm not that genius and not as good as that . You don't need to remind me that I AM FULL OF FLAWLESS , UGLY AND I DO HATE MY SELF AS MUCH AS YOU DO . OKAYYY ?.

This is pathetic ==" . Okay . Maybe I am a little bit emotional . Too emo . I guessed . This faults are really goes to that women ~~and her flawless daughter~~ , my PMS and my horoscope . Obviously , I am a scorpio and I am someone who always see the bad side of my self . But the ugly and full of flawless thing is TRUE okay ? .